wednesday evening, january 19, 1944
dearest kitty,
i (there i go again!) don''t know what''s happened, but since my dream i keep noticing how i''ve changed. by the way, i dreamed about peter against night and once again i felt his eyes prate mine, but this dream was less vivid and not quite as beautiful as thest.
you know that i always used to be jealous of margot''s rtionship with father. there''s not a trace of my jealousy left now; i still feel hurt when father''s nerves cause him to be unreasonable toward me, but then i think, "i can''t me you for being the way you are. you talk so much about the minds of children and adolescents, but you don''t know the first thing about them!" i long for more than father''s affection, more than his hugs and kisses. isn''t it awful of me to be so preupied with myself? shouldn''t i, who want to be good and kind, forgive them first? i forgive mother too, but every time she makes a sarcastic remark orughs at me, it''s all i can do to control myself.
i know i''m far from being what i should; will i ever be?
anne frank
p.s. father asked if i told you about the cake. for mother''s birthday, she received a real mocha cake, prewar quality, from the office. it was a really nice day! but at the moment there''s no room in my head for things like that.
dearest kitty,
i (there i go again!) don''t know what''s happened, but since my dream i keep noticing how i''ve changed. by the way, i dreamed about peter against night and once again i felt his eyes prate mine, but this dream was less vivid and not quite as beautiful as thest.
you know that i always used to be jealous of margot''s rtionship with father. there''s not a trace of my jealousy left now; i still feel hurt when father''s nerves cause him to be unreasonable toward me, but then i think, "i can''t me you for being the way you are. you talk so much about the minds of children and adolescents, but you don''t know the first thing about them!" i long for more than father''s affection, more than his hugs and kisses. isn''t it awful of me to be so preupied with myself? shouldn''t i, who want to be good and kind, forgive them first? i forgive mother too, but every time she makes a sarcastic remark orughs at me, it''s all i can do to control myself.
i know i''m far from being what i should; will i ever be?
anne frank
p.s. father asked if i told you about the cake. for mother''s birthday, she received a real mocha cake, prewar quality, from the office. it was a really nice day! but at the moment there''s no room in my head for things like that.